||[Aug. 1st, 2010|01:51 pm]
fasting, purging, and everything in-between
I loved when i was loosing weight when i could run my hand over my body and even though i saw myself as fat i felt the goal of being skinny being closer , now seens recovery i cant stand to look at myself , i hate making love too my boyfriend cause of my weight i hate the clothes i now fit into and weight i am at.
I started cutting down my eatting and first thing that happens is my boyfriend has go at me going oh back to that are we , oh ths is great ur going back to that shit , hey hunny every heard my body my chocie my life so piss off?
I'm sick of the control people seem to think they have on me news flash you dont , i want be who i want be and this is what i want , and considering i cant get support off people in my world i have returned back to my world here to the people who understand me and know who i am , in the past i had support from lots of girlz on LJ , and here and i hope i can find that again , i just ask please dont judge me or have a go at me just give me support me please like in past where we can talk our diets , what we are doing best way i could go about it and shit please
One thing i do know i have to start doing again is working out i havent done it in 2 years and it not kool :)
Love to all
CW - 55-60KG
LW - 44KGS
HW - 65KGS!